OK so I have learned something about myself; I have learned so much about myself but I’m going to talk about this one thing, ‘I do not enjoy writing, blogging, journaling whatever you call it ‘I don’t like it’. I’ve read and listened to so many people in my life talking about how once they got into journaling they felt sooo good. Bah Humbug is all I say. It causes me stress it takes so much of my time I just don’t enjoy it. With that said I will continue to try. I will admit that I have written some great things, and the experiences I have had in my life it would help other people going through similar things. I have written many times and put it in a file for ‘My future book’ which I plan to have someone else write for me, they will read what I wrote while I tell them in my own words about what they just read then write the best ‘you can do it too’ motivating manual that ever exists. 🙂
OK so now that I have proven that I can ‘dream’ I’ll get back to the real work, reading, looking for shapes raising my beautiful children; ok and some more writing LOL
I’m sorry you had to wait so long for this!
I can be what I will to be, I always keep my promises,
Today is my birthday. How do I feel? Like it is my birthday and I don’t want to do anything even though I am late with ‘all’ of my homework which I am so excited to get to. Do I really have to have a birthday this year?!! Don’t want to. I am blessed to have Loving kids, family and friends to force me to celebrate. I usually LOVE this day what the ……
I feel changes happening and this year I am simply observing and enjoying the ride. I love doing the work and even feeling almost physically ill sometimes because of the old peptides crying out for old habits. It is actually kinda fun because again I am just notating what is going on, building new healthy thoughts and feelings and then new life!
I always keep my promises, (oh and this year I have completed every item on my service card each week….WOW what a big deal that has been)
This week I am reminded that I know what I want. I know the 1 thing that makes me sing. So why is it so difficult to write it down in a story like it has already happened?!
Back to the grindstone again and again and again!! It looks like I am complaining but I am truly not. I actually am excited to continue the journey the more I work on myself the better I get. Here’s to my future me!
Well hello there, How ya doin? … here is how this week is going … huh
I got nothin. AND also so much.
I’m much more calm and observant these days just want relax and heal. I can’t seem to get an understanding of how I really do feel.
What I don’t want to feel is fear, and I think I am consumed with it. When a noise comes out of the quiet I do not only jump, my body goes into a panic, survive and protect mode! I am quick to become the strong Mom/ woman I am and handle it if it is one of the things that I am panicking about. The past 2 years have been hell in some ways and heaven in all. I am so blessed and my mission is to dwell on that, lol still a work in progress.
Lesson 3 #18 But the man who knows that he has a solar plexus will not FEAR criticism or anything else; he will be too busy radiating courage, confidence, and power; he will anticipate success by his mental attitude: he will pound barriers to pieces, and leap over the chasm of doubt and hesitation which fear places in his path.
When I think about the fact that fear, doubt, hesitation can all be simply eliminated just by being constantly aware of where I am allowing my thoughts to go? What more can we ask of ourselves but to respect what we say and think.
EASY! right?….huh I’ll keep you posted on how easy it becomes. As of now I feel the power of the reading. I feel the power of pride in taking much better care of myself mentally.
What is it? I really don’t know but I feel excited for the first time ‘ever’; well maybe that’s a little exaggeration, but I am excited to write here every day.
I will write exactly what is in my head at the moment (now THAT is scary).
For now let’s just say pray for me. I seem to be at an impasse in my life (I should look that word up to see if it really fits), and I’m about to embark on an amazing experience. I deserve the change that will come!