I don’t know how to begin so that is what I will say and that usually brings the writing out of me. I feel actual pain each time I grab the scroll or this weeks Master Keys (week 24 by the way) my cards are lost I haven’t seen my BPB in weeks. The old blueprint temporarily won I have been hoping for the next start date so I can ‘do better this time.’
And bam life will never be the same the things that were important last week don’t mean a thing to me today. I have a hard time breathing because it hurts so bad. I can’t change it I could not have prevented it. One of my children that I was in process of adopting hurt my already adopted severely special needs child. No one could have stopped it no one is to blame it just hurts so bad.
On one hand I feel that If I had been failthful to the Master Keys program I could have handled this so much better! On the other hand I feel blessed that I have been as failthful as I was because I can feel the good that will come out of this. Change is good, this much change all at once feels like I’m being drug by the undercurrent in the ocean. Finances change, which means living conditions change…SCARY!!
Every drop of my being knows that digging into the awesome reading, my cards, find my BPB, cross a whole subject out of my DMP it’s only one paragraph that can’t be so difficult!? I often feel compelled to reach out to someone in my master mind, “this is too much to give to anyone” Hey Mark or Davene one of them they could handle it, but then I say to myself “you know exactly what to do Mark, Davene, the whole team taught you everything you need to know, you were on every webby you have done more than most people each and every day Crystal, You’ve got this walk around crying if you need to, if that is what it takes, feel it, then move on. You know how to go through the steps of loss you have done it more in the past 2 years then most people experience in a lifetime. You are amazing Crystal, You are strong, brave, powerful consistant person and you have always been.
You can do this Crystal, and with Ease! Breath, feel through every moment it won’t kill you just make you even more amazing.”
Thank you Mark & Davene Januszewski, Thank you Jen Delks you all came at the perfect time in my life. I really am less of a mess than I would have been without the ‘Master Keys program’
